I know. I can already feel how sorry you are for me. It's hitting a high of about 20 degrees here and blowing wind that cuts right through you. We get ten days and help from family and friends so I don't think it's going to be THAT bad. I moved when I was 8 months pregnant. It can't be worse then that.
In the process of moving Josh and I have decided to declutter and throw away things we no longer need. This afternoon tested my mental limits as we went through our closet and I threw away 3/4 of things I hadn't worn in awhile or ever for that matter. Piles mounted and soon I was left with a measly 33 hangers of pants and shirts and the smallest selection of sweats I have ever had in my life.
You know what though?
IT FELT GREAT.
I got rid of things and donated them to Goodwill and what ever else I didn't think Goodwill would take I threw them away. We then went through Dexter's room and clothes. More and more junk and clutter was being throw out.
I felt a sense of pride as unloaded 13 bags of clothes off at Goodwill. My heart felt full knowing that some curvy women who might not have a lot of money was going to score some pretty cute tops. Then that's when this question immediately popped into my head.
Why am I so obsessed with having 'things'?
I donated at least 100 articles of clothing and did not felt upset that anything was gone. Did I ever really need it? Was there ever a purpose for all those things? This is when I started feeling greedy and materialistic. WHY DO I NEED SEVEN PAIRS OF CRAPPY SHOES? Why not just buy two really nice pairs that will last?
Because I need quantity over quality. I need ALL THESE THINGS to make me feel like I have value. I need to have more of this and more of that to keep up with the Jones'. That's what my mind is telling me at least. I need to start letting go and not buying things that I don't need. When I go to buy something it needs to be less of an impulse. Money isn't tight around these parts but knowing that I could save all that money I spent on clothes I never wore and probably have afforded a really nice vacation doesn't sit well with me.
This year I am making sure I buy things I need and things that add value to our life and family. I need to cut out things that are weighing my down and make room for the things that will lift me up. I am making it known that I will NOT be going broke for these 'things'. Things that I am not even sad to part with. These 'things' are just clutter filling up space where something great could be instead.